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I've been putting off typing this up all day today, because I really don't know how to put it into words.
Basically, I'm stressed beyond stressed right now. School is practically taking over my life and sending me towards a mental breakdown, and I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Finals are this week, but I can't be happy and excited about almost being done with this stupid college because I have so many papers to write - three due Monday and three on Wednesday. I shouldn't even be doing two of the papers due Monday (one is a re-do of my last paper, which I got a zero on because I didn't meet the page requirement or correctly cite sources but I would've HAD HE TOLD ME THESE THINGS BEFORE I HANDED IT IN; and the other is a second rough draft of my final paper, which everyone has to do because our first rough drafts "weren't good enough") and I just found out about one of the papers due Wednesday (for Film) last night - I though it was something we do in class on the last day, but no, it's due Wednesday because we'll be watching Mullholland Drive for the entire two hours.
All of these papers execept for the final Film one and the English re-do have to be at least 5 or 6 pages (the others only have to be three), and I don't know how I'm going to write these papers and have them all come out well. And I have Anthropology, Human Relations and American History finals to study for, and I want to do well on them, so that gives me even less time. I'm really trying to be productive on the hours-long breaks I have between classes, but I just get so distracted when I use the computer that I'll allot myself a few hours to write a paper and I end up rushing to do it at the last minute, so it turns out horribly (that was the case with my last English paper) or I don't do it at all and end up suffering grade-wise. And I can't have that happen, not now, when I'm so close to being able to leave this place behind. I really don't want to be there if I don't have to.
So really what I'm saying is I NEED TO GET OFF LIVEJOURNAL. I mean really get away from it - no flist checking, no posting, nothing - until I'm done next Thursday (if I even make it that far.) I considered giving up all forms of internet communication, but everything else I do doesn't even measure up to the time I spend on LJ. This whole "I'm stressing out over finals!!!!!" thing made me aware of how big a distraction it is for me, how it's a large cause of my less-than-hoped-for grades. So I'm giving it up for a week, even refusing myself to type in "livejournal.com" when I open Firefox - I won't give in to that temptation. I'll constantly be on the computer this week, obviously, but if you'd like to see what I'm up to until I release myself from LJ-exile, please follow me on Twitter - it's easier for me to update/see what everyone else is up to. I'll be back on Livejournal next Thursday afternoon, but if I do suffer some kind of breakdown in the interim, please know that I love you all dearly.
Basically, I'm stressed beyond stressed right now. School is practically taking over my life and sending me towards a mental breakdown, and I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Finals are this week, but I can't be happy and excited about almost being done with this stupid college because I have so many papers to write - three due Monday and three on Wednesday. I shouldn't even be doing two of the papers due Monday (one is a re-do of my last paper, which I got a zero on because I didn't meet the page requirement or correctly cite sources but I would've HAD HE TOLD ME THESE THINGS BEFORE I HANDED IT IN; and the other is a second rough draft of my final paper, which everyone has to do because our first rough drafts "weren't good enough") and I just found out about one of the papers due Wednesday (for Film) last night - I though it was something we do in class on the last day, but no, it's due Wednesday because we'll be watching Mullholland Drive for the entire two hours.
All of these papers execept for the final Film one and the English re-do have to be at least 5 or 6 pages (the others only have to be three), and I don't know how I'm going to write these papers and have them all come out well. And I have Anthropology, Human Relations and American History finals to study for, and I want to do well on them, so that gives me even less time. I'm really trying to be productive on the hours-long breaks I have between classes, but I just get so distracted when I use the computer that I'll allot myself a few hours to write a paper and I end up rushing to do it at the last minute, so it turns out horribly (that was the case with my last English paper) or I don't do it at all and end up suffering grade-wise. And I can't have that happen, not now, when I'm so close to being able to leave this place behind. I really don't want to be there if I don't have to.
So really what I'm saying is I NEED TO GET OFF LIVEJOURNAL. I mean really get away from it - no flist checking, no posting, nothing - until I'm done next Thursday (if I even make it that far.) I considered giving up all forms of internet communication, but everything else I do doesn't even measure up to the time I spend on LJ. This whole "I'm stressing out over finals!!!!!" thing made me aware of how big a distraction it is for me, how it's a large cause of my less-than-hoped-for grades. So I'm giving it up for a week, even refusing myself to type in "livejournal.com" when I open Firefox - I won't give in to that temptation. I'll constantly be on the computer this week, obviously, but if you'd like to see what I'm up to until I release myself from LJ-exile, please follow me on Twitter - it's easier for me to update/see what everyone else is up to. I'll be back on Livejournal next Thursday afternoon, but if I do suffer some kind of breakdown in the interim, please know that I love you all dearly.